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And, I'm holdling up, not fantastic, but I am doing it, damnit. I got up at nine am and wrote that paper for Japanese history, it was okay. I missed the bus, so I had to walk to school to meet Lata, I wore boots with no socks what the fuck was I thinkin? Lata is doing good, which is good, there might be a someone on the horizon... so go Lata! Yeah, seminar...sucked. BUT on the upside my evil 15 page research paper, became a 15 page Historical Fiction paper, and... that totally rules. Not that I've ever written 15 pages of historical fiction in my life, but I think it will be easier than you know the other option. Yeah, then I had to write a prospectus for the evil paper I was going to write, while researching it, that sucked and took two hours. So I got home, and COMPLETELY FLIPPED OUT. No, I started to try and attack my history paper, and, while I didn't cry, I was filled with absolute terror. Yeah, I had a working topic, worked on it for three hours, decided I hated it, changed my topic. Now, I have a bunch of quotes, a good idea of what I am going to write and a ghost of a thesis... its due at five pm tomorrow, I am not going to english (I have to go to Chinese history, but yeah after that, its just work work work).
In other news... talked to Sterling... and after my overemotional gut pouring... he as ALWAYS remained cool and relatively unaffected. Which is both extrememly comforting, and frigging annoying. At least I think he now knows how I feel, and it doesn't change much of anything about our friendship, which rules, because our friendship is one of the most precious things to me right now (yeah yeah I know that sounds horrendously cheezy but... there it is). In even better news, he's free this weekend, so after my evil two term papers are over, I get to celebrate with crappy movies (and maybe Whalers? I'm good for the money-- doe eyes--) and Sterling on Saturday.
THING TO KEEP IN MIND: odds are unlikely that I am going to die from doing all this work, as much as I freak, I know me, I'll get it done, only two more days and then I am free for a whole week! (yeah yeah small victory, but whatever!)... and this is the most important GRADUATION IS IN JUNE and you will NEVER have to do this shit again (unless I end up some day getting my masters... shudder).
ALSO: happy thoughts: Lata called Katrina a bitch (which she is) and Sterling called himself a dreamboat... its a beautiful day outside because summer is coming, and summer means swimming pools
goodnight!
posted by Amber at 1:42 AM
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