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Well, Frank is now in valley, sigh. That did not go well. We fought last night, and today after he told me he was leaving, I was very rude to him. He got us tickets to see Cabaret in Berkeley tomorrow (I was to drive down on my day off and then drive back up the next morning before work), as a Christmas gift... and I told him today that I just really couldn't see doing all the driving.
Of course he was not happy. In fact, he was livid.
So, we parted company not on good terms.
I feel like I am really backsliding emotionally, I feel depression settling over me, and I can't seem to figure out how to hold it at bay. Last night I pitched a fit of a variety I hadn't pitched in YEARS. This is so not good. I need to do something, I was happy this summer, I can get back there.
Plus I'm whining to all my friends (Ed, Lata, Sterling... yeah, it's a small list, probably part of the problem), and I don't like doing that. Especially since I know I make the guys at least uncomfortable, and that helps neither of us.
On the upside, was cheerful at work today! (god only knows why, I think it was the buzz off of seeing a friend) And, I love the CD Sterling got me, it reminds me of Orgy, and I -loved- Candyass (their single Blue Monday, is one of the few remakes I like more than the original). Also I talked to Sterling tonight, I honestly think AIM is the only medium that will allow us to keep in contact. He's a terrible email correspondant, and phone is even more erratic. I just need to be positive (this is a reminder to myself).
I think I shall go to the movies tomorrow, and the YMCA.
Goodnight!
posted by Amber at 1:37 AM
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