| | | | | | Thursday, February 03, 2005 |
Procastination and conversation
| | you know, I really like titles (whether or not they are passe). yeah so, I have this paper due at nine am this morning. Today I got up, went to the library, did the supplementary reading... and then dragged my ass through the rest of the day. So at around nine when I sit down to write it, I suddenly get in all of these interesting conversations. So I weigh the two options, converse or do homework, and my work ethic lost out. So at 12:30 I have about a page worth of writing... this is not good. I work like a madwoman. I now have around two pages of writing, however, I have ideas all written out for each paragraph and I haven't played my font tricks yet. So I am probably waking up around six thirty or seven to finish it. Man... this is bad because I have a midterm at noon and another paper due at seven pm. I have from two until seven (technically nine pm, but I want to go to class) to write that paper, and I know I will be really really really really tired. I assure you that the conversations were really really interesting... but we'll see how I feel about that at around four pm, later today. Jacob IM'd me out of the blue, we had a nice sexy conversation (hopefully he wasn't too serious, or I am going to be kind of nervous whenever I see him... I don't really want to be violated in the ways he intimated, it sounds.. messy). Sterling and I had an even more interesting conversation. "you are good at making conversation smooth, nonawkward? comfortable." Which is the nicest thing he's ever said to me, and like the hoarder of compliments I am, I am storing this one away.
Sterling: I come to you, even though you're awkward when I do, because I think you care about me. Even though I get a lot of silence (which only reminds me of how vulnerable I am by telling you these things), I am relatively sure you're not thinking "god what a whiner I wish she would just shut up." and that means something to me. You're the closest friend I have right now, and even though I don't know how comfortable you are with that idea, its true and that is really all there is to it.
Now I am going to go crawl in a hole, and sleep for a bit.
posted by Amber at 2:08 AM
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