| | Oy, manage to catch one ball, drop three more. Okay, I've been working all damn day, I am almost done with my take home Midterm for HIS 115C, I wasn't able to even get to the English essay, and lord knows I wasn't able to locate much less read that book for NAS1. Here's my plan, go to bed for a few hours wake up, seriously edit my HIS essay, turn in the English essay late (like Friday) and try and pass the NAS1 midterm (all I need to do is pass, since its pass/nopass). I also plan on crying a lot more (been doing that off and on all evening), and just getting through this time in general. I feel I am near the breaking point, the desire to fuck everything over and just fail everything has been getting stronger. (its not too big, but the desire is there, which is disturbing) Speaking of disturbing, my emotional state has me worried. I tried to find someone to talk to about it, but Sterling wasn't online at all today, and Frank kind of gave me a bit of a brush off, and he didn't answer his phone when I called him. I'm feeling pretty alone and exhausted, and all in all miserable (I think I may be getting sick too). I know I just have to muddle through tomorrow, and then I have this weekend to try and pick up the pieces, but damn does that seem far away. Sterling, (when/if you read this) we must do something fun this weekend, (unless you are busy, in which case, I will do something fun alone) because I can't keep living this drudgery.
Now, to sleep for four or five hours.
posted by Amber at 1:54 AM
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