| | today was fun! I hung out with sterling. We went to the arbouretium (however you spell it) and walked about, then we rented a filim, but my CD/DVD drive was being a bitch and won't recognize it... so once again no one sees Living in Oblivion with me. Sigh, after screwing about with my computer, we gave up. I went dancing in the living room. Sterling said the sweetist thing to me, "watching you dance makes me want to dance with you, you make it look fun" and I nearly melted, and then he turned about and said "however learning how to dance with you and not being an idiot about it would require too much work, effort I would rather spend in, something else. Watching you is intimidating" (mind you I'm paraphrasing). Oh, oh man, just shoot me. All I want is for people to dance with me, and no matter how much fun I make it, how much fun I have doing it, no one will because I am too intimidating. I wish Frank danced with me, I wish he liked it, I wish for it so bad, you don't even know. Part of me keeps hoping one day he'll just wake up and think, hey this is something I want to do, but I know that won't happen. I know its such a little thing, but its so important to me, you don't even know. Even if Sterling, who is an amazing man in his own right, suddenly started dancing with me, he wouldn't take the place of Frank on the floor. Sigh. So I started tearing up and he felt bad, so I turned off the music and we talked for a bit and he went home.
Now tomorrow I am going to see my mommy for mother's day, and then JOSH! (oh man, so excited)
Here's to it not sucking (keep your expectations low)! Night
posted by Amber at 12:42 AM
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