sterling's party, and stuff
| | so, yeah, the party went okay. The whole day was decent. I mean, it wasn't terrible or anything. Dinner with Sterling was nice, even if the wait was really long, we were there for 45 minutes easily before our food came. He really liked his animal crackers (thank god, they were hard to get! Sterling go to Longs, they have them), but the book is a mixed success (I will be really surprised if he doesn't like it, but he has some sort of prejudice against it). Socializing with Irene, was... nonexistant really other than the obligatory greetings. I watched the two of them get drunk... and she was pretty clingy, as is her right as a girlfriend. Sterling made a concerted effort to talk to me, but he was swept up in the festivities, I... was not. I really am not crazy about his roomates or the house next door, so I didn't have much to say, and I didn't want to get filthy drunk (1. in general and 2. with people I don't even like). I had one beer, and I just realized I left my car at his place, damnit (Frank showed up and took me home). Yeah, I watched a round of flip cup and two of beer pong... then apparently everyone was heading over to another party, Frank and I didn't want to go so we said we'd drive ourselves and then promptly fled. Whatever. (which is kind of my opinion on that whole part of the evening) Although, to be fair, I've felt the exact same way at every party of this sort... ever, so... yeah. I could go on about my own personal views on drinking.... but I don't want to right now, I feel its a tired point. The end result is: I don't fit in at all at a college drinking party and that is not at all a reflection on Sterling, it is just the way it is. I will be so much happier when everyone moves beyond this stage.
The rest of the evening was good, About Schmit is a great movie. Having been through the whole Katherine's wedding debacle, I understand his point of view so much more. But truth be told there is no real "hero" in that movie, every character has obvious flaws (like his daughter, shes a bitch!). Frank just left not so long ago, oy this long distance thing is hard.
Well goodnight, I am going to consider buying a transmogrification potion for my new lenny... we'll see.
EDIT: argh, this stupid thing is chewing on my mind. I am pretty sure that Sterling ditched his plans with Irene for dinner tonight to accommidate me (I think this because she hadn't eaten and made a point of saying so when we showed up to pick her up). I hate this, I really do. I mean, he asks me "would it be too terribly uncomfortable if Irene joins us?" and socially I should say no, but that would be a lie. It does make me uncomfortable, it does make me feel like a third wheel and a usurper. I hate that that is so, I really do, I've tried soo hard not to make it so, but it is. When the three of us get together, I just feel like I should leave the two of them alone. I have nothing to say to her, and while I am sure she is a witty conversationalist with Sterling, with me she says nothing. I hate it I hate it I hate it! I honestly don't see it getting any better than it was... when I first heard she existed. I try to like her, I want to really like her, but... other than a desire to like her, I feel nothing other than intense discomfort. I don't know what to do (and I am probably making more of this than it deserves, but it its important to me). Maybe I should just suck it up and say yes next time, I mean, that would make things easier for Sterling at least, and if things are easier on one of us than that is an improvement than it is now. Okay I am going to bed, for real now.
posted by Amber at 1:48 AM
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Yeah, well...you're both ridiculously uncomfortable, I think. There were no standing plans, but i asked her if she wanted to come, and she seemed sort of iffy about it too. It's pretty awkward for me, you know, it's pretty much impossible for me to be in the same place as both of you. And I wouldn't be too paranoid about the "not-eating" comment, i'm pretty certain that was just in reference to her projected alchohol tolerance (or lack thereof)
SRN
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