| | Alright, tonight Sterling and I went to the Asian American Associations Film festival (the AAAFF... no shit). We had ice cream (it was HOT today), then walked to school and waited for like an hour. We stood in the nonticketed line and listened to REALLY loud drumming (it was so loud, you couldn't think other than the beat). THEN finally we got in, and they TRICKED us. See, before they would let us watch Infernal Affair... we got to see student films. Which, is no skin off my nose, I LIKE student films. But, Sterling was kind of on the clock. See, Irene has been needing attention, or something, or rather, she was a bit annoyed that after last week, when they both had busy weeks, I had already made plans with Sterling for that Friday. And, really its no big deal, because she's not the demanding type, or anything, but it annoys me. Because I'm getting in the way, and I'm trying so HARD not to be. So, yeah, he called her to tell her things might run late, and she was uncommunicative, and I felt like I was usurping her boyfriend. So we left, without seeing the film. And it really upset me, because... I felt pathetic. Here I am taking up his time, because I -need- him, and I'm sort of (not really) competing for his attention with his GIRLFRIEND (gee I wonder who will win that one), and all because I don't have a boyfriend around (well I do right now, but usually I don't). I felt so awful that I sprinted off, so I could go cry in peace. I mean, I guess we're better now, but I still feel awful about it. I don't know what I could do to prevent something like this from happening again. I DON'T want this to happen again, I absolutely hate feeling pathetic.
Yeah well whatever, I'm done talking about this
posted by Amber at 9:09 PM
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